A mother says she cries every day after her four-year-old daughter was tragically killed in a falling fireplace.
Natasha Azadi spoke of her grief after a heavy marble fireplace fell on her only child Jessica in her home.
Jessica suffered fatal head injuries and could not be rescued after the accident on September 9, 2016.
Natasha says Jessica is in “everything” she does to get ahead and tries every day to make her proud. Teesside Live Report.
The 32-year-old says it took “hard work” to see something positive in her life after the tragedy.
Natasha suffered from grief, mental health, and alcohol addiction after her daughter’s death.
The maternity nurse said, “Losing a child is the most terrible experience anyone can have and for me, since Jessica was my only child at the time, I immediately thought my life was over, I had nothing left to live.
“It was a big struggle to reform myself and see something positive in my life. It took a lot of hard work. But just knowing that I can live for them and still make them proud is one of my main motivations that hold me.” drives.
“She was absolutely perfect. It would light up a room. She was just a happy, bubbly soul. Like every child, she had her moments, but she was just an absolute pleasure.
“Everyone loved to be around them, nobody more than me.”
During an investigation into her death in 2017, Coroner Clare Bailey concluded that Jessica died as a result of a “tragic accident.”
The court heard the fireplace, which was securely attached to a fence in the garden, fall down and hit her on the head.
In the summer of 2019, Natasha found the strength to set up her own Instagram profile to help others in grief.
She said that after her daughter died, she found there was little support and her life was “left in the balance”.
Natasha was approached by Canadian writer Carol Starr Taylor, who saw her Instagram account and asked if she would share her experience in a chapter of her book.
She agreed and became one of 16 people who revealed their true life stories in ‘VOICES’.
The book, published on Tuesday, is already an international bestseller.
Natasha, who is also a soul coach, said, “I’ve always been a pretty private person and a quiet person, so to me it was a bit like someone cared about my life and my story.
“It was absolutely amazing. I got nothing but praise and admiration for being so open, honest and raw.
“I still have my good days and my bad days and I think that accepting this is part of my life now, maybe the biggest transition for me. I used to struggle with my bad days.
“I have often thought what the point of living on is, I have nothing. But I realized that I have something – that is my voice.
“I’ve learned a lot about myself by helping other people.
“People might think I moved on, but to me I still cry for Jess every day. It will be with me all my life.
“I’m still in the same house where I lived with Jess and where she had her accident.
“She is moving forward in everything I do. I am on this path because she died.”
Natasha is now in the process of writing her own book called “Grit” on Star House Publishing, which was also published by VOICES.
She said her book, slated to hit shelves next year, will focus on grief, mental health and addiction.
Natasha said she’ll also talk about her battle with chronic depression, PTSD, and an eating disorder.
She said, “I am struggling emotionally to get on with my life. Sometimes it feels like I’m leaving Jess behind.
“It can be pretty difficult to make up for that. But the story is about her and what she brought into my life.
“At first glance, I look like a normal, healthy person. I can compose very well, I suppose I always have been.
“A lot of people will be shocked to read the book. People will see me in a different light than they see me now.
“I know it’s a positive story and it will give hope to a lot of people.
“It is meant to let people know that they are not alone with their struggles and mental health.”
Natasha said she broke up with Jessica’s father, Ben, a month before Jessica’s death, but they are still on good terms.
she previously said Teesside Live in 2018 how she wanted another child but was struggling with fertility problems.
At the time, friends of Natasha raised money so that she could have IVF treatment with the help of a sperm donor.
She said her eggs have already been frozen and plans to have a second child in June next year.
Natasha said, “I invested just under £ 10,000 in myself and my friends and family helped me with the rest.
“I’m not trying to put too much pressure on.
“I still have two laps and I vowed to only do three laps.”
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